Negotiations Continue: Timing is Everything

I faxed the updates to my lawyer this morning.
He called and said that he had received the financial info and Dow's lawyer and he were talking.
I told him I could sign a quit claim deed late Thursday if Dow's lawyer could prepare it.
Dow was pushing for a quit claim as he wants to get his equity loan at the rate it was offered.
Dow is here next week so he could get the loan if she gets the quit claim to me ASAP.

What we don't get done this week will have to wait for when Dow gets back, no way around it.
Scott asked "Where you going?" as he wanted to fax me papers. I said, "Sorry I am going to the rainforest of Costa Rica." It was to be the "new beginning after the divorce" now it is not over. Scott said, "It really is over, you are in the paperwork phase."

Emotionally:
I could not sleep last night. I kept feeling "You are on your own for the first time in your life!" Freeing yet scary to be in this place. I keep remembering all the widows/widowers I have ministered with. All coping with different family support, finances, health issues, etc. I keep remembering the dream at WR where I walked out of the "dark web room into the sunlight" with a small child at my side. I am truly getting out of the dark room and I know Godde will give me lots of sunlight!

On the other hand:
For the first time in my 6 years as hospice chaplain I received a reprimand from a supervisor. I left a 4 hour meeting to take co-workers who are leaving the hospice to lunch. Both women were strong professional supporters and personal support for me during this horrendous transitional year. I am now very worried because this office terminated a chaplain, a friend of mine. I am thinking, "I have to know the rules of this management/combat zone." I told only one person a RN that I was going to lunch. This RN was involved in the dismissal of the previous chaplain. I am thinking, "I may retire before 1/3/09." So I plan to speak to my supervisor first asking for a meeting with the RN. We will see how it goes!

Also for the first time since I started with hospice I was denied time off, "a psych-social person has already requested those days." Really upsets me as they have a full-time chaplain who would do a call for me, I only work 3 days. If it is her vacation days it would be less a "bug in my eye" but if it is a social worker-I would never do a social worker call so... Again, are they trying to upset me so I will quit? Doing a good job if they are!

From the frying pan to the fire! or Godde does have other plans for me? At this stage of my life I am willing to see how this unfolds but I will not be silent in the face of injustice.

A positive: with the change of my work schedule I am able to attend the Peace Vigil downtown twice a month. I have really missed my peace circle! And am looking forward to being at Federal Plaza handing out peacemaking materials once again! Yes, and the weather is great!