My Computer has been Down!

Haven't been able to post all week. Norton Security let me down and I wound up with all kinds of viruses till Norton said, "Go Save Mode" So off to computer repair the old machine went. It is a 10 year old Dell and I was panicked. I hadn't backed up since April 08. I thought, "I am sure a virus ate my computer!" However, I was very, very lucky but I just got my computer back at 11:30 PM last night!

So the computer whiz said, "Get rid of Norton, use Avast instead." He installed the anti-virus so I will see what it will do. It is free. Kris feels that Norton slows down the machine. He thought my computer would last up to 5 years but "it's already ancient as computers go-it is 8 years old" I use Windows 98 which will be defunct 1/09.

Today was very interesting.
1. I presided at my RC faith community. The Gospel is Jesus feeding the 5000. I talked about my sister's upcoming hip replacement surgery on Tuesday. Just got off the phone with her and she will have a plastic cup for the new ceramic head of her femur. The surgeon told her they are doing it because she is "active-dancing and hiking." Not using metal that is. So Connie needs to be fed spiritually and emotionally as she prepares for this surgery. She is a 5 year breast cancer survivor. Keep her and her complete, easy recovery in your thoughts and prayers.

2. Later in the afternoon I attended a meditation circle hosted by a friend who visited Brazil earlier this year. She has had back problems all of her life. The healer is named John of God and channels St. Ignatius Loyola as a healer. She saw him perform both emotional and physical surgery not using any instruments. She experienced improvement during her two week stay and continues to hold the healing.

The meditation includes prayer about every 20 minutes for an hour. Soft music plays in the background. The state to achieve is one of thanksgiving, gratitude, including the healing that you might be seeking. I prayed for Connie and also my friend Janice who will be ordained as a RC Womanpriest this Saturday in Lexington KY. I will read the Gospel at her ordination. She has lived the priestly ministry working for women's ordination and peacemaking, serving three months in Federal prison for committing civil resistance at Ft. Benning GA.

During the meditation, I at one point looked at my watch and it was 6:05, I "awoke" by a gentle touch at 6:25. I did not experience myself as sleeping but as in a "quiet reflective zone" aware of my surroundings yet in this very peaceful state within myself. It was a blessing as that is what I came to seek.

Preparing emotionally and spiritually for the final court date of 8/14 has me unquiet inside. On the surface I look/feel fine, yet I know I am experiencing deep emotional loss over how I have lived my life. I seek healing for my wounds, faults, my ignorance, my inability to find the truth earlier in life. I seek forgiveness for the hurts I have caused others especially Jason. I have not made any headway in cleaning the apartment-pictures or Christmas items. I feel as if I am "hanging," suspended. Only 10 more days in this limbo and then it will be over. I am relieved.

Janice's ordination takes place this weekend and I will stay and "Look over Lexington" as a possible place to live. I need to see cost of living versus Chicago and Senior services. And most importantly Janice's plan for the future. What is she going to do? Will she be open to having an inclusive faith community and working for peace? Will Janice and Bob move? I need to find out.
I really like Chicago it has so much to offer, I hate to leave. The situation will have to be really good. For me the challenge of Lexington is how do I get to an airport to get to Tampa to see the grandkids? Looking at the map it is not too bad a drive to reach the Detroit area, probably not much more than from Chicago-about 6 hours. I am hoping to be able to catch a train out of maybe Cincinnati and I wouldn't need to drive all the way to Detroit. I am hoping that is a possibility. Chicago has access to planes and trains which I love.

Everyone have a great week.