Two Tasks I Can't Bare to Do But Must

I have been procrastinating so long. I must do two tasks that "give closure" to this relationship.

1. For 50 years I collected Christmas ornaments. I must give them away as I know I will never have another tree as beautiful as the ones I decorated in Blacksburg, VA. I have always loved Christmas. It is a magical time. In the Michigan of my childhood snow covers the ground and Santa can really come. Mother would work literally all Christmas Eve night; putting up the tree, wrapping gifts, cooking. It was one day that she enjoyed the results of hours of work. It is among the few good memories I have of my childhood years.

2. I have boxes of photos from my lifetime and marriage. I must go through them and sort them, send them to folks who would like them. It is like a funeral for me. I listen to the widows and senior women mourn the loss of their homes when they must downsize. It comes to us all, now it is my turn and it makes me cry. I know the reason is the loss of a lifetime not the "why" of the loss. I don't know why this is such an important process for me but it is. I think because I took the photos.

Then on to creating a new life after the court date: will, POA for medical and finance, transfer of ownership of auto, changing may name on everything from auto to tax records.

Then discernment of what direction I am to follow.