The final Court date is Aug. 14 at 9:00am in Courtroom 2103(A) at the Daley Ctr., Chicago
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M. Scott Gordon (my lawyer)
I feel as if I am preparing to walk out of a nightmare and into the sun.
Concretizing into physical reality the dream I had while at Walter Reed in January 2006:
I knew I did not want to fight emotional battles with Dow any longer.
I could choose and I did. This is the first lucid dream I have ever had.
After the dream I knew the attacker was Dow and the web filled room was my depression, fear, anxiety as the result in living in a toxic marriage that I help sustain because I could not "get out."
Jason's wounding which blinded him; healed me so that I could for the first time see the reality of my emotional and spiritual life.
Now I am not afraid nor exhausted but wait on my God to walk with me into God's future.
I am in God's hands. I don't know if life is an adventure but I do know that I will have surprises given to me by God to live for. And when God calls me into eternity I will be at rest.
M. Scott Gordon (my lawyer)
I feel as if I am preparing to walk out of a nightmare and into the sun.
Concretizing into physical reality the dream I had while at Walter Reed in January 2006:
A man/creature is in a loft about 3/4ths of the image. The man/creature is in a spider web shaped like a tunnel. I know he is there and ready to pounce. The loft is hung with black and weapons, the lower floor may also be the same. I am standing on the floor below and looking up into the scene. I know I have fought and won (this morning’s session with Dr. M where I spoke my feelings honestly) I was to fight again. A child is with me. I decide ‘No, I do not need to fight.” I turn and walk away. I turn to my right and step out into the sunshine and blue sky.
During this dream I felt scared and frightened and exhausted.I knew I did not want to fight emotional battles with Dow any longer.
I could choose and I did. This is the first lucid dream I have ever had.
After the dream I knew the attacker was Dow and the web filled room was my depression, fear, anxiety as the result in living in a toxic marriage that I help sustain because I could not "get out."
Jason's wounding which blinded him; healed me so that I could for the first time see the reality of my emotional and spiritual life.
Now I am not afraid nor exhausted but wait on my God to walk with me into God's future.
I am in God's hands. I don't know if life is an adventure but I do know that I will have surprises given to me by God to live for. And when God calls me into eternity I will be at rest.
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