Monday, September 22, 2008

What's It Like? Being Divorced?

I thought I would write a quick note as I have been away visiting my sister in Ann Arbor who is recovering very nicely from a hip replacement in early August. Connie can return to work October 6. However the downside in the news is: Probably another hip replacement in the spring of 2009, the other leg "Is just as bad" said the MD on Connie's check-in this past week. Connie is now feeling the discomfort in that leg as the other one is healing so nicely. That was Connie's first reaction after surgery: "I can't feel any pain!" Got to give it to the MD's and their hi-tech surgery, it only took an hour to "cut and paste" a liner to the hip joint, take off the top of the femur and replace it with a nice porcelain one!

"Shame on you" to the BC/BS of Michigan who refused to send her to a rehab center but sent Connie home 4 days after she came off the surgery table.

What I feel most about being divorced is that I am no longer afraid/fearful. I feel as if the divorce degree is a protective barrier around me, protecting me from Dow's emotional and spiritual abuse that I experienced during our marriage. I truly feel free. It is hard to put into words. Everyday I wake up and say, "THIS is my life!" I look forward to each day praying that I will be the Compassion of Jesus to all whom I meet. That is all I want to be to each and every person God puts in my life's path for the day and to the earth herself. It truly is enough for me. I hope that when I die my family and friends will say, "Katy lived the Compassion of Christ."

As I type I weep,
For all of my life I lived in the dark night of my soul.
Now I am not.
My life is filled with many blessings,
May your life be filled with many blessings, too.
This first day of autumn.
It is beautiful here in Chicago.
Sunny and 70.

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